Positive

              I try to stay as positive and not think ill of others such as Wickman. It just seems to me a waste of time thinking ill of someone when you could be thinking of what is ahead. Lizzy is very different in that way although sometimes it is refreshing. I do intend to hear much about her trip very soon. It seems as though Lizzy always tells me the best stories. I do hope to hear from Bingly soon well I guess I will just have to wait and see what happens. 

        Until the next time.

               Yours Truly,

                     Jane

New Days

                I am feeling great, its a new day and everything seems to be right for now. I do wish to hear more about Elizabeth's trip and the encounters made. I love just being able to think and just let my mind dream of happier memories. I shall say I'm delighted for what is to come. May I remind you that enjoying life is a pleasure of mine and I intend to enjoy it with or without Mr. Bingly.


            I am feeling fine it is still a little hard. Going through something like this is not easy but it is for the best. I hope Bingly and I will still talk and be friends soon. I am just waiting for a day to pass when it seems normal. This may arrive soon I'm hoping. Well I intend to make this a great day with thoughts and dreams. 
               

            Until the next time.

                    Yours Truly,

                           Jane

Happier State

                I am in a happier state these days it becomes easier to push the feelings for Mr. Bingly aside although in my heart it is still pain. I am looking forward to all Elizabeth has to say about going to Pemberley. We mustn't dwell on what has not happened but look at what will happen, I assure myself many terrific things are ahead. My road is still paved and I shall keep on my way to finding what is laid in my path. Im afraid I haven't much to say at this time but I will soon.

Until the next time.

         Yours Truly,

              Jane

Future

          I feel no need to dwell on what has happened but to look forward to what is to come for me. My dear sister is having a great time with the Gardiner's touring Darcy's house I do intend to hear much about his house when she returns. But for now I am doing fine I shall continue to only think positively it is the only way. I am looking forward to what will come of everything happening and that there will be joy in every little thing.

   Until the next time.

         Yours Truly,

              Jane

To be Back

         I'm left in the care of the children I shall be looked after well. I'm still a little perplexed about the whole Bingly situation oh how it shall get better is a puzzling idea to me. Perhaps getting over him is really whats best. I'm just so glad to be back and I know I am in great hands. Well thats all I shall say for now.

   Until the next time.

         Yours Truly,

              Jane

Hope At Last

     Everything is going just well. I'm finally getting my mind completely of Bingly. My sisters are oh so happy and enjoying themselves. Life is great and grand the officers we shall see Wickman. For Elizabeth I fear because tensions so high between them. But as they say everything should fall into its place and lets hope it benefits everyone. 

   Until the next time.

         Yours Truly,

              Jane

Dinner

       I'm still a little depressed but being surrounded by family shall be helping me. We went to Gracechurch Street the town. I have been willingly trying to keep my mind off Bingly by doing numerous things. It has helped so far. It was so nice to dine with my mother and my sisters it was a fantastic way to keep my mind from wandering. I shall never know how it would have turned out if I had gotten to be much much closer with Bingly.


     I know it seems that everyone wants the best for me. But it is difficult to not think about the man which what could have been. I feel so much care from Elizabeth and the others it is helping. I'm proud to say that everything else in life is going just swell. Well that is all I can say for now.

   Until the next time.

         Yours Truly,

              Jane

Emotions High

           Im very much heart broken, but as this time it has gotten worse. I feel so sad I don't know what to do. I have heard the two gentleman left Rosings, and as for Elizabeth I heard well. Seeing as it was going to be her final days there she was happy. But as for me I'm still very torn. I am wishing and hoping everything shall get better and be in my favor. 


           Ah I have never felt such pain in my life, I just am all discombobulated. But seeing as my sister will return should lift my spirits. I musn't dwell though it is not good for me at all. I do however feel so alone but that will change I'm hopeful. 

   Until the next time.

         Yours Truly,

              Jane

To fear

     It is still very hard not knowing the cause of Bingly and I, could something have been or should questions I often ask. I am doing just fine, I suppose. I have heard news that Lizzy received a letter form Darcy, news of what I have not been told for I believe about all the answers to Lizzy's questions. If this is indeed true I fear for her sometimes that knowing the truth will enrage her anger but also what little anger I have as well. I am so fragile for this has been hard on everyone being in Kent is nice but I fear its not best. Well I shall see how it all plays out hopefully in my favor. 


     Until the next time.


         Yours Truly,
              Jane

Feelings are so strong

            As the time passes I become more aware of my surroundings and feelings. As I am still shattered from Binlgy. But enough about me for the way I feel has not changed. Lizzy has run into Darcy quite often I hear. Im glad she is happy and that she seems to be taking a liking to Colonel Fitzwilliam. They have been talking much about my situation. Lizzy is a great sister for finding out about what truly happened I'm very anxious to know.  
         She has gotten all the letters I've written to her since being in kent. I have heard much as what Darcy is feeling towards her. I feel thankful to her for all she has done for me. Now it shall be time to discuss her own matter. For I fear she is to hung up on me. 


Until the next time.


    Yours Truly,
          Jane


     

Pain or Happiness

     All is still well, my feelings towards Bingly have not changed, nor do I think they will. I mustn't get to hung up on the fact of pain but think of all the happiness. I have heard much certainly about the invitation to have dinner at Rosings. That the ladyship was elated to see her nephews, and that she seemed to be immersed in speaking to Darcy. Lizzy seemed to be entertained  at the dinner which she never had been so well entertained during a dinner.  They asked Lizzy is she would play the piano but not the main one. Questions arose at dinner about our family, Lizzy answered them with much intelligence. Also I heard someone had saw they way Mr. Darcy was towards Lizzy at Rosings.
       I have not spoken or heard from Bingly at all maybe this is good for me however I shan't know the difference. I feel pain but happy to much is to be going on to think about myself. For I am expecting a letter from my dear sister Lizzy. I am curious to know about everyone and what is happening. How she is holding up with Darcy. The collins seem to be doing swell and I surly hope enjoying the compnay.            


    Until the next time.


            Yours Truly,
                     Jane

Suffering is only part of it

            To suffer from heart break is extremely hard, but I am holding up well here in Kent. Mr. Bingly is one man whom I will never forget about nor stop thinking about. I wish him the greatest happiness in whatever he chooses to go through with. In going through this all it has made me a stronger person. I am thankful for what he thought of me it did indeed make me feel confident.  

            Along with this I have heard my dear sister Lizzy is at Hunsford  I am sure she is swell, and having a wonderful time. It seems to me she is enjoying her time there. Mr. Darcy will also be arriving in a few weeks. I have hear that with Darcy is Colonel Fitzwilliam. I shall want to know many of the details about her trip and the adventures. As her sister I wish nothing but the best to come of all this. 


  Until the next time.
    
         Yours Truly, 
            Jane